Good Grief! If you read my last post, you know I went to start school on Monday only to find out I had been erroneously purged from the system. I marched across campus immediately (okay, my pregnant ass more like waddled….but it was, as Bill would call it, a turbo waddle, because I meant business!) and went to the Registrar. They admitted they made a mistake and told me it would have to go to the Dean. She took my phone number and told me to hang around campus until it was fixed.
Good thing I didn’t listen and went home instead. It was not until Tuesday, after several phone calls TO the college (they had not called me like they said they would) and three emails, one of which went to EVERYONE in the President’s office, I finally got a call it had been fixed.
Once I had sent that final email though, I started to have doubts. What if it was a sign I needed to not enroll in school? What if I’m not meant to finish? What if I need to focus on the new business or my writing. Then my mother chimes in “what if you’re about to get a major book deal?”
Way to go mother….now I’m going to overthink it……get my hopes up, and then……well, the phone rang. The guy on the other end CLEARLY did not want to make the call to me, probably because he read my email and was afraid of me yelling, but he assured me it was fixed and we moved on.
Fast forward to this morning and I’m in the dreaded math class. The good news is I was switched to a math class with a teacher I know and who is great. The bad news, I was a few minutes late because 1) my wallet went missing (Talia) and 2)…..well….Starbucks.
Being 34 and in a basic math class means I’m mixed in with a LOT of 18 year old kids. I don’t like 18 year old kids. Why? Because they are obnoxious and talk the whole time. The girl next to me today was no exception.
It was almost entertaining in a way. If I had not been so bent on concentrating on my work (which is hard with ADHD to begin with) I would have found it amusing. I was sitting next to a girl who had another girl on the other side (we are at round computer stations) whom she apparently knew. They spent the entire 2 hours gossiping and whining about “all this math which is just too hard.”
She spent most of her gossip session talking trash about other girls they had gone to high school with. She would talk about how this one wanted to hang out with her and how she hated that one. She then would end her sentences with “but I’m going places with my life.”
She insisted she was going places with her life several times….and then she dropped the bomb…… She was dead serious, but I could not help but bust out laughing, probably like a hyena, in a rather quiet computer lab.
“So and so is also pregnant, can you believe it? She wanted to hang out but I’m going places with my life and ….oh, there are only 286 more days until 4/20….” (I don’t remember the exact number so don’t quote me if you’re counting….) but SERIOUSLY??? Who counts down the days until 4/20???? You must be some EXTREME pot head….but you’re going places with your life….
I don’t know about you, but the calendar I use is for doctor appointments and deadlines….not drug based holidays!
Now if you’re into pot, I don’t really care. It’s not my thing, but I once had a roommate who was an extreme pot smoker and other than the smell, I just don’t care. I mean, if being lazy and eating everything in your house is your thing, that’s fine with me. I wouldn’t care if it was legal either, but I’m guessing “Miss I’m Going Places” doesn’t function well when high. She looked straight today, and I’m pretty sure she completed three whole math problems in two hours….
The good news is my other two classes are online. Also, this math can be mostly done at home because it’s a computer program, but I have to go there to take the tests. There is one test a week. I’ve ridden this rodeo before (I’m so horrible at math) and I HAVE to complete this for graduation in May because I have like 3 more maths to take. I’m confident I can do it…with Bill’s help.
In the back of my mind though, I keep thinking “What if my mother is right? What if I am about to get a book deal?” or, what if the new business is about to take off? Do I abandon ship and focus on those things, or FORCE myself to finish and graduate? I suppose I should wait until I get to that bridge when it comes, but it is fun to daydream!